January 2010
Roxy
hey darling, not much is new except that i might be a lesbian. better late than never right?
please help her
Hey So apparently u have a drug addict face When my uncle met u he said he new for sure I was doing drugs because I was with u he wants to call my mom I'm moving out of my place my cousin pretty much told me to Could use a friend U never called me back when I asked u help after getting hit by the cab, so not sure u will this time But I could use a friend S
experiencing loss
I MISS YOU
i hope we can be friends
Hey, Just wanted to say that I hope we can be friends. I know I am doing this by email, which is BAD, but did not want to presume to call you. Thought I was being upfront about my situation and purposefully not keeping the reality back - my being ill-equipped for anything serious/emotional for a long time to come, but going through the motions of meeting exhilarating people with whom I could...
my jersey shore
yana
Atisha, We are a huge fan of your work, especially the photograph you sent. We would like to do a small feature on you for the first issue. How would you feel about answer a couple questions remotely? -Mariana
http://www.seasickmama.com
when i want
it’s more difficult for girls to make awkward/intense eye contact in the subway, because guys think i am hitting on them. i also have a pretty intense stare when i want to use it. you don’t want to be on the wrong end of it, trust me.
speed and goodbye cocktails
weekend was on speed and goodbye cocktails. i’m getting tired of drugs and of totally skipping the saturday night sleep every week. lately this is like a loop.but i started yoga again, after a pretty long break. almost forgotten how good it is. my body is happy and thankful. so is my head.
acting like a slut
My first reaction was that I felt like i had done something really wrong to betray you...i was really upset.....and very apologetic..then the more i thought about it the more i realized that I really never did anything that wrong....Roxanna, I am sorry for repeating to Orion that you were invited to Miami...but it was never in a bad way Roxanna...NEVER. I didnt know it was such a big fucking...
like i'm going to ask
My friend's parents told me to ask Jesus for forgiveness. WAHHH!? Jesus scares me man, like I'm gonna ask.
a letter from my father
I’ve forgotten how the three of us wound up in a car together, with Dick driving, but his friend, obviously having been ‘primed’ by Dick, looking at me wearing a freedom flag to my shouldblades, plus a five-year beard, even though he’d just been introduced to me, proceeded to lecture me in a very aggressive, insulting way, about cutting my hair and beard, and getting a...
do i feel
it’s hard for me to do nothing.
me and the woman i love
you look more like a shark than a humming bird.
people i don't know
when i was a little girl i had a really deep, raspy voice. it’s different now. i kind of hate talking on the phone to people i don’t know. is that weird?
mood or season
i just read your ‘it never ends’ post and it struck me. cause asking myself a while ago what i like to do the most i realized that its watching people. that’s the only thing i remember doing since always, no matter of situations, locations, mood or season. no matter what kind of people i have in front. just love looking at them, enjoy observing the smallest details and catch...
i pace when i talk
I pace when i talk on the phone, like can’t sit still.
despite my ipod
it seems as the world gets smaller and more “convenient” people need to insert things between themselves and others, create space in order to feel like an individual or something. it isn’t about making connections, it’s more about avoiding the people that are in your face every day. i don’t ignore crazy people on trains and i am baffled by people who do. averting...
idiots and ridiculous people
the only good purpose reality tv serves is to point out idiots and ridiculous people. and to be honest, i am pretty good at picking those people out myself and don’t need tv shows to aid me. and to think that not one, but several people had to think The Biggest loser was a good idea, is kind of sad. I mean, do people really need that kind of venue and competition in order to be motivated...
us being the way we are
I know you’re gonna feel the way you feel, but I think you know that I really do consider you one of my dearest, closest friends. I know we haven’t gotten along very well the last few months, but us being the way we are, a bump in the road is always somewhere in the forecast. But we’ve managed to patch up the tire every time so far and keep on chuggin’ along, and hope...
noc0medown asked: I love everything you write. I can't explain the way I feel about the stories you tell, but I really look forward to them errrryday.
So thanks :)
So thanks :)
the note
i lived with a girlfriend in shanghai. we’d been dating for a year, lived together for awhile and i came home from school one day to find she had moved out, leaving me a note. she came back that night, but we got separate apartments after that and then broke up 6 months later. (we should have broken up then…i am tremendously forgiving, good and bad quality.)
padded bras, cigarettes and coors light
i am incredibly shallow. and really only like to be seen in darkness. all those photos of me in the light were digitally enhanced. have you ever gone out with someone who looked nothing like their photos? i think i included so many photos because i wanted people to be sure of what i looked like. no point in putting a false foot forward. it’s like padded bras…eventually the guy will...
i don't talk to him
i went to private school for high school. it was a boarding school, but i was a day student because we lived near by. it was definitely the best education i have received. they hold events a lot in nyc. i go sometimes. they are fancy. i still talk to and see a lot of people i went to high school with. they have names like Walker Brock and Brainard “Trip” Whitpeck III. (thouh, i...
i brush my teeth in the shower
i brush my teeth in the shower with an electric tooth brush and turn the water on hot but not that that hot and as i become gradually acclimated i reduce the influx of cold until i almost can’t take it anymore then i turn off the hot and turn on the cold full blast letting the freezing water wash over me until i can’t breathe anymore.
go pound sand
kids were brutal to me in elementary and middle school. after school special brutal. my mother used to tell me to tell them to “go pound sand.” i would say this when being picked on and i would only be picked on more. Then, whenever i felt bad about this situation, i was told, “i cried when i had no shoes until i saw the man with no feet.” tough for a child to internalize...
it never ends
do you like the subway? i love the subway. i think of it as an exhibit at the zoo. humanity in temporary captivity. i wonder where people are coming from, where they are going, what happened to them to make them grumpy, who would make good couples. who i would be friends with, who i wouldn’t. fun games. if i like you, i will teach you how to play Scoop. it’s my favorite people...
frozen in flight
sucker
iwithdrawal
so, i was thinking about the iwithdraw.com idea. it’s funny to me that as more and more tools become available to connect us—first it was cell phones, then wireless, then blackberries and iphones and networking sites like friendster, myspace and facebook, we actually connect less. And it seems that as more devices and sites are created, the less people are actually able to interact....
arcalia asked: thank you for following me, or else i probably wouldn't be following you. and you are quite interesting, so i like following you. /isoundridiculous
thank you, though, really.
thank you, though, really.
brain-food asked: I highly enjoy your stories that come with the pictures. Your blog is like a giant scrapbook, and that's beyond cool to me. Plus you have a shit load of friends, haha.
Is there anything else in life you've always wanted to do?
Is there anything else in life you've always wanted to do?
last night a year ago
Last night I was highly annoyed with the world so I drank vast quantities of alcohol in the spirit of self-medication. I reneged on my month-long pledge of sobriety but was forced to in order to survive the day. It felt good. Lauren had been bugging the shit out of me. Talking about how fat she’s gotten since she stopped working out and started eating and drinking without restraint. Like I had...
ash-morrison asked: The stories that you post occasionally with your photos, are they all true?
i wanted you
melissaisamess-deactivated20101 asked: Hi so you post the coolest stuff and I stinkin love it. How do you feel about hot chocolate?
bastard
it
pet
we
the pitts
tiny smalls
stop i love you
maybe
I’ve managed to make peace with Kurato via text message. I wasn’t sure we’d ever be friends again and I wasn’t sure I cared. But Erica talked me into sending him a message. She said he was hurt. I said I was tired of hearing him complain about his miserable life.
She said, text him.
I said, What?
She said: Sorry this has gotten so out of hand. I don’t even know why we’re not talking to each...
do you want one?
It was 12:45pm when I woke up to the sound of Jack and Kendall fucking (my roommate and his girlfriend). She was faking it again, screaming her head off. In not so many words I told them to shut the fuck up. They did. I got out of bed because I had to. I had to make it up to Lauren so I showered and dragged my ass to 10th and 3rd, where she was having brunch with a bunch of girls. We kissed...
hi/im-perfectionist
thanks for your sweet note yesterday. it put a smile on my face.
neighbors